Sunday, March 26, 2017


As we head into the last week of term for the Princesses we're all dreaming of having a break and the awesome time that we had when we went away over the Summer Holidays. We were very lucky enough to go on a cruise around the Pacific on P&O Eden. 
Santo was the first stop and it was beautiful, so beautiful I actually spent the time enjoying it and not taking many photo's with my camera and left it up to Hubby and the GoPro. After we got off the ship we arranged a bus and driver for the day, hot tip the further along the street you go, you get a better price. Don't expect air conditioning, or luxury like we have in Australia either. That is just not island style, they will say yeah we have air con then you drive around with the windows open all day. FREE AIR CON. I  had the same type of air con in my first car.

In Santo we started at the Blue Lagoon, unbelievable, amazing clear fresh water. The Blue Lagoon effect is caused by the limestone. You know it is good when you just to to enjoy and jump in. Next stop was a small bay next to Turtle Lodge where we had beach to ourselves. 

Our driver then took us off to lunch at a local hotel, this was our view.

Must stop location in Santo is Million Dollar Point, I have been told by family we were travelling with that it was stunning but after Princess 2 saw you could get your hair braided for $5 there was no tearing her away, I spent the time chatting with the lovely lady in blue in this picture about the Preschool that she runs. Her sister in red runs a bottle shop and as we arrived on New Years Day she had been very busy the night before with little sleep. I was super impressed with these ladies and how hard they worked and took the opportunities to do more and train their daughters to do the same to  really capitalise on the cruise ship season for the island. I was more then happy to part with my $5 and not have to do Princess 2's hair for a few days.

At every port there are markets, they are all the same stuff and all amazingly handmade by the person selling them. They must all get together and work at the same place. 
That place may be a factory in China.

After taking Princess 2's braids out. Ah I loved not having to do hair every day. 

Next stop on the cruise Champagne Bay

Now I have seen some beautiful beaches in Australia and 
this would have to be better then anything I have seen so far. 
When I think of Paradise, this is it. 

 We spent the day swimming, Princess 1 got her hair braided, we ate local donuts, which are very similar to Raro Cook Island donuts and wandered the markets. Oh and I can't forget the yummo Sweet Potato Chips. These people know how to use a deep fryer.

You pay the local kids to hold a lizard. 

Someone was very tired after the second full day off the ship and maybe should have had more sun cream on those cheeks. There was so much more to do at Champagne Bay and after speaking with people once we got back on the ship we found out the snorkeling was great on the right hand side of the bay. 

A friend had told me to go to Kmart and buy a mesh flotation thing, the sort that you blow up the sides of it and you float around all day in the water with your head resting on the pillow. Brilliant idea, it folds down into a flat circle bag that when you are not using can sit at the bottom of your bag.

Next stop next time..... 

Wednesday, March 8, 2017


Over the last few months my blog has come up in conversation and only today did I look at it, after
I told a friend to search for it. I then realised the last time I blogged was 2 years ago. Whoops, 

Well what can I say I've been busy so sadly anyone that cared enough would have had to find my cool pictures of our family over on Instagram,. I love Instagram it is so easy to snap and share.

To try and get me back in the game of pounding away at the keyboard to share our unique life with you all here's a round up of two year:

1. My baby is at school
2. I studied last year and now am back to 5 day employment after being Mum to little ones at home for a long time.
3. Lots of Travel, I love getting away with the kids and I will try and share some of our adventures.
4. We rescued a Dog from Animal Welfare, that's blog in itself
4. I have a very short attention span and to be honest trying to be super mum cooking dinner and blog at the same time. If you count chips in the oven as cooking, They are real potatoes and I even peeled and cut them up. Did I just change the subject, did I just write 4 twice? No Mum shaming here. I'm all over this Mumming Business today.

I'm sure we have had a jammed packed two years seeing I was to busy to document it all. Let start again, here are some photos of what we look like now.

5th Birthday, must have pj's pic playing with new toys.

Shout Out Game - so much family fun, just look at us so attractive...

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Schools Back

Schools Back, Schools Back its an awesome day today. I actually made it on time. That's a great start to the school year.

Here's some pics of the darling Princesses

Clearly one of these three didn't want a photo today.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Running away - losing Riley

Today is International Pregnancy and Infant Loss Support Day, last year I was challenged by friends to write about my pregnancy loss, my journey. I thought about some things which I had not written about before, I wrote a list of titles that I wanted to write about, to document for my girls what my days where like, to give justification to how life was like and how it is now. However writing does not come easy to me and writing about these days is emotional and can take me to the moment, the emptiness, simply at times I just can not write about how hard it really was.

But today as women and men around the globe light candles for their babies that have gone to soon, I feel compelled to write of the times when the struggle to move forward and create a picture of our future seemed so far out of reach.

On the 16th February 2010 I gave birth to my only son Riley. I could say this was the darkest day but in honesty it wasn't it, even the days between holding Riley and his funeral were not the darkest, we were surrounded by people, I still felt that he was with me, there was still evidence that I had been pregnant. My milk was coming in, I had the jelly belly, I could still feel his warmth as if I still held him on my neck. At least in those days it was real...

It was three weeks later, a very kind friend offered for us to use their holiday house to run away and spend some time together as a family. These were my darkest days, I could not find happiness, I couldn't look at my family, I couldn't understand how my husband could keep going when I was falling apart.
Trying to be a good mum but drowning in grief

This is when I started writing....
From my Journal

Early March 2010
Today is our wedding anniversary 6 years today. Time has no relevance at the moment. I just feel so confused at the moment. I don't know if I feel sad or just empty. I want to talk to other people that feel this way. I think how can I be sad when I don't have much to miss. Would I be more sad if I lost one of the girls as I would have more memories to miss. I feel that I miss Riley so much as I have so few memories which I don't want to loss.

We are on holiday which should be relaxing but I keep thinking we wouldn't be here if Riley was still with us. I need to be positive and think yeah we wouldn't be on holidays if Riley was still with us and I wouldn't be able to create these memories with the girls.

Late March 2010 
So confused. I'm finding it hard to sleep at night. When I do get to sleep I wake often. Last night I had a nightmare that a bomb went off and I was only able to get to Poppy. I woke screaming before I could get to Monique. I feel helpless in protecting my family. I keep thinking I should have known that something was wrong with Riley. Was I not connected to him. Was I to busy to notice.
I'm so tired but when it come time to sleep I don't want to lay there and let my mind drift away.

Mid April 2010
Today I just want to hold you in my arms. I want to be able to trace your nose, your lips, your face. I want to feel you skin and give you my love. Today my heart is heavy, I don't know why today is any different from yesterday. I don't want to be sad. I want his to have never happened. At times my mind wonders and I find myself wanting to be alone, to be by myself, to just do nothing but stare into space. I want to have happy kids but how can I when I feel so sad.

I want to run, to run and feel the beating of my heart and the only thoughts of getting one foot in front of the other.

May 2010
I went to the Bears of Hope Support Night tonight, it was so good to be with others that know what it feels like to have all these emotions. I want to have hope for the future. I want to make plans.

These are not all my entries into my journal over that period of time but these give an indication of my confusion and feeling of helplessness. Then slowly I become Ande again before I could be lost completely, I realised that inside of me was still me. Like every other experience in my life, good bad or indifferent, having Riley will always be a part of me and our family for eternity.

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I'm a stay at home mum to three beautiful girls and one angel boy which inspire me to be a better person every day. My Blog is about our life and suviving the up and downs of raising a family and the love and loss that come along for the journey.