Friday, June 8, 2012

Six months

Six months how you fly by. Where has my baby gone, Miss Josephine you are getting so much bigger now and I just want to stop you growing anymore. I want to be able to capture this moment in time when everything is good and happy and lovely and all together awesome.

This last month has brought a few milestones which has just sent me into a spin. Josephine has moved to her own room, still in the bassinet but in her own room all by herself. I can't stand to have her door closed, I find myself running up the stairs to just check on her one more time. The what if's take control 'What if she pulled the blanket over her face, What if she stopped breathing and I didn't know', 'What if this awesomeness of life right now gets taken away..' I know this is my defence and I try as I might to let my guard down but it is still there.

Josephine is such a lovely baby, she sleeps, she laughs, she loves her sisters so much. There is a special bond between Poppy nad Josephine. It can be so annoying at times that Poppy has to hold her or wants to carry her around but then you get the glimse of the bond. When Poppy is busy doing something else and Josephine tries to get Poppy's attention, knowing that she will do something funny to make her laugh. I have worried about the big gap between Poppy and Josephine and have wondered is it going to be to big for them to have a friendship and a close sisterly bond. Then I see them together and know that there is such a special bond between these two that the age gap doesn't matter.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

On the Road Again

On the road again just can't wait to get on the road again.

Woop Woop I have my license. The world is my oyster, I have all the freedom one could desire. Life is good. So so happy that my family can now get back on track and we can find a normal finally. It has been so long since normal lived in our house. Now I will lay out the welcome mat and usher NORMAL in.

Normal means
  • not living in grief
  • not being ruled by fear of a pregnancy ending
  • not having a sick baby
  • not having a seizure and smashing my face
  • not being restricted by 2km walking distance
  • being able to do my own shopping
  • being able to get the kids to school when it is raining and not having them saturated by the time we get there
  • David being able to do things on the weekend without me and the kids tagging along
  • being able to get my eyebrows done at a place that does a good job and only charges $10 instead of $25

Most of all getting my license back means, that I'm no longer the burden on my family that I have been for so long.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Super Powers & a Little Hope

Yet another morning of mad rush to get the girls out the door today. Last night I said I'm going to be more organised. I'll make their lunches at night, I will have library bags, homework and home readers all checked off and packed in bags. Today I will be super organised mum (imagine a flying red cape and me zooming around the house).

I almost cheered when we got out of the house early then I noticed the heavy rain; "Girls back in the house it is raining, raincoats please". Still not late, this is good I'm still on time. Now to find my umbrella and head out the door but what do I see from my front door? Miss Monique jumping in puddles in her sneakers. I yell at her "Do you have gumboots on", NO, "Are your a duck", NO "Are your feet wet" Yes. Oh well to bad lets just get to school, your feet are sure to get wet on our walk to school anyway.

Still feeling kind of pleased with myself that I'm still on time we start walking down the hill towards school. Monique is walking in front of me, then it dawns on me "Monique where is your school bag?"
Back up to the house to find Monique's bag. I love this girl and her teacher tells me how smart she is but sometimes she is a little ditsy.

Lets try again
Bags - Check
Kids - Check
Water streaming down their faces - Check

Well we finally made it to school and with my Super Mum cape on we actually made it on time.
The girls whre a little wet from our walk to school today, hopefully this will be one of the last times we have to make the treak to school in the rain. I have my Neurology appointment today and I hope that they are going to give me some good news about when I will be able to get my license back again. Now I have done my own research and the law says that I just have to be seizure free for 6 months. I haven't had a seizure since the 11th December, that is almost 6 months.  Surely they aren't going to make me wait another 10 days. Even still the end is in sight. I don't want to get my hopes up as I was so disappointed last time.

Roll around 1.45pm let see what this day holds, with my super powers today nothing will get me down (imagine arms outstreached ready to take flight)

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I'm a stay at home mum to three beautiful girls and one angel boy which inspire me to be a better person every day. My Blog is about our life and suviving the up and downs of raising a family and the love and loss that come along for the journey.