Monday, May 28, 2012

Poppy's 5th Birthday

My Poppy is Five, five wonderful years with my free spirited child with boundless energy that I wish I had myself. Poppy's personality is one in a million, she is caring, talkative, loving, and a little crazy. She loves to dance, when she dances it is like the music is in her and she feels the rhythm with every muscle in her body. She sweeps and moves like the wind and lets the music dictate her movement, when I watch her I can't help but stop and smile at her freedom. 
Poppy and Monique both have wonderful qualities, as a parent you look a your children and say that they must get that from their mother or they must get that from their father. Much of Poppy's traits come from me, I can see myself as a 5 yr old. I can feel her struggles at school as I struggled to. I can understand the teachers telling us there is just something about Poppy, we can't put our finger on it but she is different. They joke that she is going to be on the stage. The Poppy I know will grow up to do amazing things and be an amazing friend and sister.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Not only 3 girls

Today I'm sick of being nice, sick of having the comments from people about us having only 3 girls. Please don't ask me are you going to try again for a BOY. NO, NO I am not going to try for a BOY. You telling me I'm still young and I have plenty of time, you telling me of people that you know or how you yourself managed to have three of one sex and go on to have the opposite sex.
Well good for you. Do you actually know you can't choose what you are having!

I sit and bite my tongue. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. I don't want to mention my son in the fear that it will turn you away, knowing that at my daughters 5th birthday party might not be the right situation to tell you about how my baby BOY died and I long to hold him in my arms every day.
You know it would be no different for me if we have a mixture of girls and boys and then lost Riley it would still be the same . It doesn't hurt any more because he was our only Boy. Does it hurt because he was just so close to being ours in our hands and then he was gone, Yes...

When I tell you about our BOY, thank you for saying sorry and thank you for holding your child a little closer, to take that moment to know how lucky you are for having them here to hold onto, to smell, to love, to listen, talk and even yell at when they never do as they are told.

I am thankful for my three girls I never thought I would have girls, for some reason I aways thought that we would be a family filled with boys. I'm thankful that my girls are girly girls but can still get into sport with their Daddy. I'm thankful that they are mine, that they have taught me how to be a better person and make me want to be a better person every day. I'm no perfect parent, at the end of each day when I get ALL THREE OF MY GIRLS into bed I say 'Oh, that day is done and another will come tomorrow and I will try even harder'.

This life is but a short time and MY BOY will be back in my arms again along with my girls, so NO I don't have to try again to have a BOY. I have one, very special Angel Boy Riley David Cummings patiently waiting for me to hold him in my arms again.

Maybe this is all a little harder to deal with today with Mothers Day tomorrow. Happy Mothers Day to my Mum and all the Mums out there that have children to hold and children in there hearts.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

5 Months Old

What can I say, I'm cute, I have eyes to die for and checks you just want to eat.
I'm five months old now and getting so big, I'm now moving into 00 clothes but I'm still in my bassinet in Mummy and Daddy's room. Mummy has got really brave now and she lets me sleep on Daddy's side of the bed. She better get use to me sleeping in my own room as I'm growing out of this bassinet and I'm going to have to move into my cot soon. She let me sleep in it once but only for a little sleep.

I keep my days busy with Mummy reading with the kids at school, they all think I'm cute; I have to be quiet and just pretend to read with them. I like to try and eat the paper. By the time I get to school I'm going to be super smart.

This is what you get sitting next to Poppy in the car...
Always with the Camera Mum, give it a break I just woke up.


Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Easter - Family Fun Weekend

I know Easter was like forever ago but I'm a little behind in my journal keeping. I will get back on track. My delay in posting is kind of like everything at the moment. You get started and then get distracted and I find myself sitting down for the thrid time loading up the same pictures of what we got up to over Easter.
 On Good Friday we headed to the Redcliffe Sails Festival. I love a good festival with music and markets. It's my idea of a great day out, mind you the crowds and trying to push a pram through and keep track of the other two girls was not easy.

Awesome Day to Fly a kite.

On Saturday we woke to fantastic weather, after getting all our jobs done for the day, we headed to the beach for the afternoon. I love the beach, I Love love love the love love love the beach. There is something aboout getting my toes in the sand that take me back to being a kid and being free of worries. As soon as my toes touch the sand, I can take a deep breath in and know life is GOOD. 

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I'm a stay at home mum to three beautiful girls and one angel boy which inspire me to be a better person every day. My Blog is about our life and suviving the up and downs of raising a family and the love and loss that come along for the journey.