Friday, December 23, 2011

Things I'm grateful for

Christmas being only two sleeps away I want to reflect on the many things which I'm grateful for.

I'm grateful for my children, that I have been blessed with four children which make me the mother and woman that I am. Without my kids I wouldn't be who I am and my life would be so different I can't even imagine what it would be like. Even when things seem tough all I have to do is look at my kids and know how lucky I am.

I'm grateful for my husband that does everything to make my life easy, to provide for us as a family and gives me the opportunity to spend my time doing what I love the most. Dave supports my decisions to work for a charity, he supports me when I spend more then my budget, he support my parenting  and he makes me laugh when he laughs at his own jokes. We have been together 15 years and I look forward to being old and looking back on our life together.

I'm grateful to my parents which always want the best for me and as much as it pains them that we live in another state, support us that we know what we are doing is right for our family.

I'm grateful to my friends which have provided endless support to get through this last two years and love that no matter what happens will always be on the other end of the phone. I'm grateful that they can see the funny side of life and can joke with me even if it is at my own expense.  The jokes about putting my purple eye shadow above my eyes not below have made my day.

I'm grateful that I'm part of a big family and have married into a big family.

I'm grateful that I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, since having Josephine we have had such wonderful support of meals and help with the kids from people at church. It has been really interesting to see people come to my door to deliver a meal and they don't know me or don't know why they are delivering a meal to our family. They just do it, as they know that there is someone else in need. I hope that I too can give this same service to people that has been given to us.

The list of things which I'm grateful for could go on and on but today these are the top 6.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

I haven't been bashed

Last week I posted about how busy it has been here with three princesses, well it just got a whole lot busier. Last Thursday Josephine had to be weighed and sadly she had lost lots of weight and we had to go to the hospital to be admitted to get some help with feeding. She had lost so much weight that she had to have a NG Tube to get the fluid into her.

This might seem like enough but then to add to the story after waiting around for hours in Emergency we were admitted to the children's ward. We were there all of one minute when the nurse walked out of the room to get me a breast pump and I had a seizure. They walked back in to find me on the floor having a fit. The last time I had a seizure was 2006 after having surgery and before that the first time was in 2000. Thankfully I had put Josephine down in her cot, I don't even want to think about what I would have done to her if I was holding her at the time. As I was fitting I was hitting my face on the floor and as a result now have two black eyes and a large lump on my forehead. It looks like I have been bashed. I was pretty much out of it until Saturday morning and now I can slowly piece the pieces together with large amounts still missing. On the friday I couldn't remember more then 15 minutes prior and was very confused.

Photo taken today 7 days later.

So for me it is back onto epilepsy medication which I haven't been on for the last 8 years and no driving for at least the next 3 months. This is going to be tough, not even being able to pick the kids up from school if it is raining or just duck to the shops to pick up a few things. I'm going to be pretty much home bound unless Dave can drive me somewhere.

For Josephine it is 3 hourly feeds of a combination of my expressed breast milk and formula until she get nice and fat and my milk comes in more. I have a cocktail of medication to get my milk going and I have to pump every two to three hours. Lucky I can't go anywhere, me and my pump are best friends now and will be for a long time.

So if you see me please know this was not a result of Dave giving me a back hand. Dave has been so wonderful, I feel for him having to try and juggle work, girls, me and Josephine. It just makes me love Dave even more when he does everything to make our life easier.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

What a busy few weeks - Poppy's end of years events

Over the last two weeks we have had so much on. The end of the school year is jammed packed with activities and award ceremonies. My parents have been for a visit, we had a baby, Christmas parties and preschool graduations. In the week that we had Josephine there was an activity on every day, other then the day that she was born, then this following week has not been much better.

Poppy Preschool Disco
Poppy at a cat

Monique as a beautiful garden

Preschool Christmas Concert and Graduation
First stop was a visit to Santa.

Some singing from the kiddlets, Poppy front and centre of course singing her heart out.

Poppy's teachers Miss Mel

Miss Kerri

Miss Sally

Very proud of Poppy, she has grown so much this year and has really enjoyed going to Preschool. Not long now and she will be in Prep.

Rie & Mikie always seem to time their visits when we have school activities on. They have not missed any school activity this year which is amazing as we live in another state. Poppy was so excited to be able to have them here and show them her preschool and be able to take them to her graduation.

Poppy Swimming Lessons
Yippee Poppy has finally moved up to level 4 swimming, some kids can move up quite quickly but Poppy likes to take her time. When she is nearly to the next level she then gets bored and stops trying so she stays down a level for even longer. Lucky for us we have found a teacher which believes in Poppy and knows what she is up to, there is no pulling the wool over her eyes. We have tried many teachers and Poppy tries the cute factor, for most teachers this works for a few weeks, not with her teacher that she has now had for the last 10 months, no messing around, no cute factor, Just results...

Friday, December 9, 2011

Sunny Days - 37 weeks so close I can almost reach it.

Written on Friday between 12.30am - 1am

At the clock has ticked over to midnight on the 2nd of December I know today is the day that you will be born. I know that if we work together we will be able to get through this labour and I will feel the joy once again of seeing my precious baby being placed in my arms. I look forward to seeing the look of amazment on your Daddy's face, the only way to describe it is "Oh My Wife is the most amazing person ever", not sure he would explain it this way but that is the way that I feel when he looks at me after giving birth.

We went and saw the Prof today and he very kindly could see that getting to 37 weeks was pretty amazing and I have been under enormous stress. The last couple of weeks have been very hard knowing we are just so close but it all seemed so far away. Even know as I sit here in labour and type this out to I feel excited but torn about going to the hospital and getting this all started. At our appointment today Prof did an internal to see if I could be induced and what method would need to be used. Surprisingly I was already 3 -4cm dilated, I hadn't even felt a contraction. Lucky me!.
The plan is to go to the hospital at 7am in the morning and have my waters broken but I really don't think we are going to make it until 7am. This evening was Poppy's preschool graduation concert and I just had to be there so my whole afternoon was focused on being there for my girl. She had to wear a clock and cap it was so cute and they sung two songs. I'm sure I will post more on that when I'm not so distracted. All afternoon whilst getting the kids ready and going to Preschool graduation I was having niggiling pains but I could easily shut them down and could still feel Sunny moving so knew I had a little bit more time up my sleeve.

With graduation checked off the list and the girls shipped off to Mum and Dad who just happen to be here on holidays. My mind could focus on letting my body do what it has to do.

30 minutes on I'm know thinking enough of this distraction, it is time to ring the hospital and make the 1 hr trip. I need to be in control and have the monitors on me to know what is happening. Right now it is one foot in front of the other to try and get over the finish line.

Josephine Adelaide Arrives

I have finally found some time to post, last friday we welcomed the arrival of Josephine Adelaide, you might know her as 'Sunny'.
Weight 3095
Date of Birth 2/12/2011
Length: 50cm
She is so lovely and we are so glad to have her with us finally. What a long road. As I have time I will continue to write about my girls and what it was like to be 37 weeks pregnant and then to actually deliver her and bring her home. The anticpation and emotions are something which I don't want to ever forget.

Here are some Pictures of our beautiful girl.

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I'm a stay at home mum to three beautiful girls and one angel boy which inspire me to be a better person every day. My Blog is about our life and suviving the up and downs of raising a family and the love and loss that come along for the journey.