Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Family Holiday

Being surrounded by a large Family is awesome, I'm able to sit back and look and dream of my family being the same some day. Now I will not be having seven kids but to have a family holiday with all of David's siblings. partners, parents and all the nieces and two nephews was wonderful. I can feel the love, I can feel the connection between my girls and Suzanne's (my sister in law that lives in Tassie) girls even though they have not seen each other for three years.

Before the family holiday Monique was having issues at school not having friends to play with. There is always two sides to every story but all I was seeing and hearing was that Monique was taking herself off to the Library at lunch break to be by herself as she felt that she had no friends. This was heart breaking as a parent to know that she was alone. I had questioned if she knew how to make friends. When we were on the family holiday it was like a spark was ignited in Monique when she got together with Becky and Hannah. She had a friend that wanted to play with her, a friend that was interested in reading and playing and doing all the things that Monique loves. She was so happy.

Becky and Monique even convinced her kid less uncle and auntie that it was a good idea to have them over at their house for a sleep over. This was the first step in the plan to stay awake all night... Oh the joys of a girls sleep over. I'm glad that it wasn't me...

Our girls are pretty good travellers but when they get ants in their pants we use a few tactics. The DVD players and if they are not set up I have my camera as a backup. We were about an hour into the trip when Poppy started with her annoying ways. This I have found is sometimes because some other reason like needing to go to the toilet but being unable to communicate that at the time of being a pain. Here are some of her very artistic photos of her view from the back seat.

We have a tradition in the car, when we go through a tunnel on long trips you have to put your hands in the air and hold the tunnel up. I don't know when or how it started but people that drive past us must think we are nuts.

The back seat must be pretty boring, I got bored too

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

11 Months Old

This time last year I was only just managing to get through a 24 hour period without freaking out. I was counting down to each weekly hospital appointment and when I got there I begged the Dr to tell me how much long. Begged that they could guarantee that you would be OK.
I would lay in bed waiting for you to kick really hard. My life was ruled by how much I had felt you kick in the minutes or second before. I was not me I was some obsessed women that could not see past a few hours I needed to have everything in life planned in the hope that this time we would be able to bring a baby home and into our arms forever.
I can look back now and see how very nuts I was, I have no faith in my body. My mind and my body were separate beings, both of which I had no control over.  When I was about 16 weeks pregnant I went to a councillor at the hospital ( I was refer to her after having a panic attack on my first visit to the hospital, it was bound to happen when the midwife couldn't find the heart beat).
She told me I was really normal and I was dealing with it all very well and she didn't think I needed her help but to call her if I felt I needed it. A year on I can say I needed it, and I shouldn't have been to proud to ask for help. I was the mayor of Crazy Town...

Now my darling girl you are 11 months old, you are beautiful. You eyes sparkle and I melt. You are growing bigger now and I have realised in less then a month you are going to be 1. How did that time go so fast. I'm so thankful that i have been able to enjoy you, to cuddle you when ever you wake and to listen to you laugh when you play with your sisters.

Since my last post at 9 month you have developed so much, you now say Mumma and Dadda and Bubba, and Baba for birds. You are crawling, climbing up stairs, pulling yourself up onto furniture and just yesterday you discovered that you can clap. You favourite food is frozen blueberries. You have two sleeps a day but if you only have one then it doesn't really bother you as long as you have people around to entertain you.

Asleep in the trolley, such a hard life

Three and half weeks until you are one, time to start shopping for birthday presents....

Friday, November 2, 2012

Bears of Hope Ball 2012

In July between moving house and juggling kids I took a trip to Sydney for the Bears of Hope Ball. It is held each year and for the last three years I have had the pleasure of being on the Ball Committee. There is something to be said about giving back to a charity which has done so much for our family, they allowed us to connect with other people that had lost a child and knew the pain that we felt in the days and months after losing Riley. 
Although this year has been hard to assist as much as I would like to, I hope to never be thrown out of the Ball Committee or "Pretty Committee" as a fellow committee members husband had dubbed us all. What what a wonderful description.
All the images are from my iphone which I have found doesn't take the best pictures in a dark room.
Some of the Pretty Committee

It was great to have some friends come along for the night. It made me miss their crazy ways...'

The money that is raised each year at the Bears of Hope ball goes to funding the charity and providing new services to grieving parents and training medical staff. There are so many wonderful charities that are helping people and not enough time or money to go around for all of them. I'm proud that I'm able to give a little of my time to Bears of Hope to know that my loss of Riley may help even one other family.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

School Holiday Fun

In the September School Holidays my parents came for a visit, we tried to do things which we had not done before. The weather was pretty bleek so the beach was out, we found some fun things to do on the Gold Coast and even in Brisbane that were free. I love a free activity.

Food is always top of the list when Grandparents visit and Pancakes on the Rocks was a must. This was my breakfast, Chocolate Pancakes.
Josephine introduced herself to meat pies and BBQ sauce.

Currumbin Wildlife Park every day between 4pm - 5pm do bird feeding you just pay a donation for a plate. Monique waited so patiently for the birds to come. Poppy waited and waited and then decided that holding a snake was much more exciting. Wish I got a picture of that. Poppy is scared of bugs and spiders, she has even been known to freak out about a fly in the bath.

Monique wanted to celebrate her birthday by going to the GoMA in Brisbane, she is so cultured. Not sure where she gets that from, but I will claim that as my trait. It makes you less 'Bogan' if you go to art Galleries.

Brisbane Festival was on and the chinese lanterns were beautiful

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