The panic comes in waves of 'yes I can deal with this", to "please just get me through the next hour, to the end of the day, until Monday'. Monday marks another ultrasound for us and when it should be exciting all I feel is panic, fear that I'm going to have to live through the nightmare again. For the last week I have kept as busy as can be, maybe too busy but the tactic of distraction is wonderful with keeping my mind away from being consumed by the monster of fear. It is in the still of night when I can't sleep that the wave gets bigger and bigger and I find myself in bed willing Sunny to move, for her to tell me that she is OK and it is all going to be alright. Like a mantra Dave tells me often it is all going to be OK that we are going to get to bring Sunny home. Sometimes I can see this and I can pitcure giving birth again but some days when the anxiety is high all I want is to be able to get to the ultrasound and see a healthy baby kicking around in ...
Yipee!! Now I keep track of what your two gorgeous princesses are up to :) Will stay tuned......
ReplyDeleteps: We love mini quiches here too, do the girls eat them? Ours are too keen but us big people are so I put a dollop of sweet chilli in the pasty base before I add the quiche bit.
Dad asked who the two Princesses were, so I said Monique and Poppy, then added or Monique and David, but that would be 3 Princesses.
ReplyDeleteGlad to see a blog :)