The panic comes in waves of 'yes I can deal with this", to "please just get me through the next hour, to the end of the day, until Monday'. Monday marks another ultrasound for us and when it should be exciting all I feel is panic, fear that I'm going to have to live through the nightmare again. For the last week I have kept as busy as can be, maybe too busy but the tactic of distraction is wonderful with keeping my mind away from being consumed by the monster of fear. It is in the still of night when I can't sleep that the wave gets bigger and bigger and I find myself in bed willing Sunny to move, for her to tell me that she is OK and it is all going to be alright. Like a mantra Dave tells me often it is all going to be OK that we are going to get to bring Sunny home. Sometimes I can see this and I can pitcure giving birth again but some days when the anxiety is high all I want is to be able to get to the ultrasound and see a healthy baby kicking around in ...
haha - love it! Who does she get her moves from!? Don't you love that you can put videos on your blog - such a cool way to keep a journal :)
ReplyDeleteThat made my day.Monique is getting long and lanky.
ReplyDeleteLove Lorraine.
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I have two things to say:
ReplyDelete1. She dances like you Ande; and
2. She is going to kill you for posting that one day
LMAO
Em
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Cool moves Monique :) Love Auntie Suzie xxoo
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