Sunny Days - The Prof


Photo Taken at 20 weeks
 Today was our first appointment with the Prof at Royal Womens he is really lovely which although not really that important, makes it easier for me to have faith that he knows what he is doing for me. It is wonderful that he is going to see me and treat me for the rest of Sunny's pregnancy and is not going to push me off to another Dr. We worked together to find a plan that is going to work for us. This pregnancy is not just medical it is mental. Mental that I'm putting myself and my family through this all again, no actually we knew what we were getting into, by mental I mean a mental journey for me to get to the end with the overriding fear that it could all end in a second.

I had alot riding on today and the anticipation of getting there was so overwhelming last night I felt like I was back in February/March 2010 saying I can't go through this again. The Prof went through the care that I will receive and when I will have ultrasounds and appointments. I now have a plan and a focus. I will have appointments with the Prof every fortnight and before I see him I will have an ultrasound with the best fetal medicine professionals in QLD. This plan works for me right now, two weeks is about my limit before the crazies start over taking my life.

I can only take it as it comes and what works to keep me calm today might not work tomorrow. The only way to get through this is in small steps.

Comments

  1. The Hesitant HousewifeAugust 11, 2011 at 6:18 PM

    I'm so glad you have found a good Dr, who helps to reassure you. That sounds like a good plan, you just need to get by, two weeks at a time. xx

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  2. The KingsAugust 11, 2011 at 7:38 PM

    That's great that you have a great doctor and a good plan that you are happy with. I can't even imagine how stressful this must be for you. Hopefully Sunny will let you know that she is well with lots and lots of movements so you won't be stressing at all. Thinking of you!

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  3. Simone TriffittAugust 13, 2011 at 2:39 PM

    That sounds like such a good plan Ande. I thought Flynn's pregnancy was stressful enough after Charlotte so I can imagine how much more stressful this must be. We are all praying for you along the journey. xx

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